Who I am:

I am an, in Berlin based, illustrator and have been drawing for as long as I can remember – or at least for as long as I’ve been able to hold a pen. And it never was anything else but people. There was always attraction and love for the human being in me, a fascination for its unique capability in expression and variability. Even during fashion school and art studies, while being influenced a lot in a way of input, I never felt being affected by all of that in a negative or restraining way. Contrary, I developed my style more and more to be open, a universe very diverse, often dark and of a morbid beauty, touched by history. My biggest sources of inspiration are, and always will be fashion, music and history!

What I want to do:

The Camino de Santiago also known by the English names Way of St. James,St., is the name of any of the pilgrimage routes, known as pilgrim ways, to the shrine of the apostleSt. James the Great in the Cathedral of Santiago de Compostelain Galicia in northwestern Spain, where tradition has it that the remains of the saint are buried. Many take up this route as a form of spiritual path or retreat for their spiritual growth.

What I need the money for:

The way is, depends on where you start, around 850km ( 528miles ) long and leads over mountains, fields and villages. For this route you need 4-5 weeks, by walking 20- 50km ( 12-30 miles) per day. So you can imagine, that one can not take simple holidays at work.

1. During the time I do not work, I would still need to pay my rent and the fix costs during my absence.
2. The equipment: Trakking shoes and clothes, backpack, sleeping pad, sleeping bag etc. around 400€
3. per day I will need to pay for accommodations in hostels and food 15-30€ ( for this whole trip around 900€)
4. the way to get there and to get back ( flight, bus, train ) will be around 500€

I am really not used to ask for help, I always found a way to figure something out, my exhibitions I payed everything myself, for I had nobody to help me out financially. I kept fighting to be the artist I always wanted to be. Have two diplomas, one in fashion design one in contemporary art, degree I made in France. Nothing seems to be worth anything nowadays. At least that’s how it feels.

I will turn 32 in April and sometimes I feel like life is over and too late to start new…I know, sometime I talk like I am 89.

I really need time to think, I am stuck, felt like I have never been happy in my life, emptiness, loneliness always fighting.

I am not sure what I will find on that way, enlightening, holy spirits, lovely people, strength, maybe even love? Who knows…

But what I know is, that for once I really need help and I am asking for it, you lovely people who were fighting the way through my german english writing, thank you in advance. I assure you I do better draw than write

much love and appreciation for your consideration and help!

Agnes