The Abyss Has Opened: My Fight to Climb Out of the Financial Fallout
Friends, family, and kind strangers—I stand before you today not with a request, but with a desperate plea born from the wreckage of the last few years. I am drowning, and the weight pulling me under is not just one burden, but a catastrophic collision of medical necessity, economic betrayal, and the relentless demands of my own mind.
This is the story of how a single year can dismantle a life built brick by painful brick.
The Three-Headed Hydra of Ruin
In 2022, the world tilted on its axis. A necessary, invasive surgery—a battle fought within my own body—left me victorious but immediately vulnerable. The recovery was long, the bills astronomical, and the stability I thought I possessed shattered.
Before I could even begin to repair the financial damage, the cruel hand of economic instability struck. Not once, but multiple, consecutive layoffs followed, tearing away the safety net just when I needed it most. Each job loss was a fresh blow, forcing me into a cycle of panic and desperate scrambling.
And through it all, the constant, non-negotiable cost of staying functional: my medication. Living with Bipolar II disorder, diagnosed in 2017, is a life lived on a tightrope. These specific, often prohibitive medications are not luxuries; they are the very scaffolding that prevents a catastrophic descent into mania or crushing depression. To stop them is to invite disaster—a disaster that the debt alone cannot rival.
The result? A colossal, suffocating debt that has forced me to take out loans just to keep the lights on and afford the therapies required to keep my mental health anchored. I am now servicing the debt of my survival.
The Ink and the Illusion: Building the Bridge to Stability
I am an artist. I am a storyteller. And in the darkest corners of this struggle, I found my only true weapon: my manga.
I have poured every ounce of my remaining energy, every sleepless night, into creating a self-published comic project. It is my passion, my testament to resilience, and my genuine hope for a future where I can stand on my own two feet again.
But here is the brutal truth: This creative work, while vital, cannot instantly erase the financial damage. I need a bridge—a massive financial infusion—to clear the immediate dangers so that my creative efforts can finally become my income, not just a desperate distraction.
The Unvarnished Reality
While $300K represents the complete clearing of this multi-year financial catastrophe, reaching even a fraction of this goal will provide the critical breathing room necessary for immediate survival. Funds raised will first go toward securing the next vital cycle of medication and paying down the highest-interest loans that are currently bankrupting me monthly. Any support you offer buys me essential time and stability right now.
This is an investment in a future where I can contribute creatively without the constant threat of financial ruin forcing me to choose between my stability and my sanity.
Your Investment: Digital Rewards for a Digital Future
Because international physical shipping costs are prohibitive, every single reward offered through this campaign is digital, ensuring that every dollar goes directly toward clearing the debt.
Please note: The final book and exclusive content delivery is tentatively scheduled for next year (2026), as we must dedicate time to the crucial translation process from Thai to English to ensure the highest quality for all our international supporters.
Here is how you can help build this essential bridge:
| Donation Level | Reward Package |
|---|---|
| $20 - The Witness | Digital Thank You: Personalized digital thank-you note. |
| $50 - The Supporters | All the above, PLUS: End-of-Book Recognition: Your name (or chosen pseudonym) listed in the dedicated "Supporters" section at the very end of the final published book. |
| $100 - The Exclusive Supporters | All the above, PLUS: End-of-Book Recognition: Your name (or chosen pseudonym) listed in the dedicated "Exclusive Supporters" section at the very end of the final published book and The Limited Edition PDF: Access to the special English PDF version of the manga, which will feature exclusive artwork contributed by guest artists—content that will not be included in the standard PDF version. |
| $300+ - The Collectors | All the above, PLUS: Exclusive Digital Postcard Art: A high-resolution, postcard-sized piece of original artwork created specifically for this fundraiser, delivered digitally. |
The Plea: Help Me Survive to Create
I am not asking for charity to live lavishly. I am asking for the chance to breathe again—to clear the crippling interest on the loans taken out for survival, and to secure the next crucial months of treatment.
If you have ever understood the silent, agonizing cost of managing chronic illness, or if you believe in the power of fighting back against overwhelming odds—I implore you: Help me fight this avalanche.
Help me turn the page from debt and despair, and finally begin writing the next chapter on solid ground.
Thank you for witnessing my struggle. Thank you for investing in my survival.
With profound, desperate gratitude,
Methas
