Hello my name is Ana.
I am in a hard situation in my life, I have no money and I don't have a Jewish community nearby. Most Jews in my area have secularized and become Christians, can you please help me be able to move to Israel, to learn Torah and get close to Hashem? It's important to me, and a great Mitzvah. Please allow me to return to Judaism, like my ancestors.
I am in an extremely difficult position. I live in a country with extreme prejudice against Orthodox Jews. I have Sephardic Ancestry, but my most recent ancestors are converts to Christianity and refuse to help me with going back to Judaism. I am in a dangerous situation, I could be sent to a hospital because I reject catholicism. I contacted Shavei Israel, but they can't help me unless I move, and I don't have the funds. I also contacted Midreshet B'erot Bat Ayin ( a better option because instead of twice a week we study Torah daily ( except Fridays and Shabbos). The expenses are similar. I am trying my best to save money to go to Israel to convert back to Orthodox Judaism, but as soon as my family spreads to my employers that I am Jewish, I get fired. I don't have the financial security to move to Israel, and because my most recent ancestors are Christians, I am not eligible to Aliyah. I have contacted Shavei Israel, but sadly they cannot help me because I don't live close enough to a Jewish community. I am at huge risk. Because my mom couldn't expel me from home, she is trying to get me hospitalized because she says Jews are the devil an she wants to make me give up Judaism I am in an extremely dangerous situation. My mother abuses me and yells at me all day long because I am "devolving " into Judaism. She hits me and throws objects at me. I complained to the police, but they don't believe me because I am a " Jihadist extremist". They have a lot of prejudice towards Judaism. Now my family is trying to get me hospitalized for keeping Halacha, Shabbos, rejecting the non-Kosher food, using my own kitchen utensils and because I kept tziniut despite the heat of the summer. The situation is really hard. I could be sent to a hospital until I give up Judaism. My goal was to be able to study at Midreshet B'erot Bat Ayin, so I can learn Torah and live in a Jewish community. Please Help me! I have documents but I cannot afford verification because I am not allowed to have my own income, and even food is denied to me. The situation escalates every day. Before It was just the psychological violence, now it has escalated to physical violence too! Please help me! Even social services consider Jewish observance unhealthy. I am in a dangerous position in my country where I suffer physical and psychological abuse for my religious views. My family is trying to get me hospitalized because I keep my Mitzvot as much as possible, including keeping shabbos, Tzniut, and Kosher. Sometimes I get abuse and I get things thrown at me when I am trying to light me Shabbat candles or praying. If people don't help me I may be hospitalized for believing in " Radical outdated Judaism". My country has had so far very Anti-Semitic approach to me since I started observing Shabbat and keeping kosher. Keeping Tziniut in the heat of the summer led them to take action because of my " extremism" for wearing long-sleeves and long skirts.
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This is the Program I need to attend, but I have been having a hard time saving money. I have been having to face a lot of anti-Semitism in my country and even lost my job due to keeping kosher and tziniut.: Full-Time Program ( tuition is 1000 dollars a month) New Online Course that could help me while I can't afford to move to Israel ( official doc from the Midrashet) but if I get sent to a Hospital I could be prevented from accessing Jewish content: Online course for those unable to relocate to Israel at the moment ( 250 dollars a month+ 1000 during the mandatory time in Israel) Medical form I was sent ( already sent them the filled version) Official Recognition By the Beit Din of Midreshet Berot Bat Ayin Application form I was sent ( this is not filled as I already sent them my application and don't have a copy here) There is also a 50 dollar fee for the Application ( which I sent months ago, but still didn't pay for the fee). I have visited the Midreshet, and Bat Ayin and it's a great Torah Observant community!