Ok I know this is going to be a long post. First off I'm sorry in advance. Picture for attention. Please bare with me If this is not allowed please tell me as this took a lot to post. I'm going to start from the beginning up until now and try and keep it as short. I'm happy to answer questions. I am looking to help this man. This man is my significant other. This man did something for me almost 2 years ago I never thought possible. We were on and ofd again friends for over 5 years. June of 2017 he helped me escape my abuser. My now EX husband. I dont know how to really start this because I am scared. The last time I tried to post about myself I had death threats, was told to kill myself.... Even so far as people telling me my kids deserved to die.... I promise that is not a lie. I came to America in Sept of 2010 with my ex husband. I came under the assumption he would get my citizenship and health care. I was pregnant with another mans child who I was previously engaged to. I have bad taste in men. I dont need a lecture. I already know. Anyways I moved here legally. We got married a month after I moved here and had my daughter in November. Shortly after I moved here my (ex) husband became physically abusive... It escalated pretty fast to mental verbal emotional abuse. I spent 7 1/2 years being controled, isolated, neglected and abused. I had another child with this man. I have two kids. My daughter Rose Marie who is 8 and my son Alexander who is 5 soon to be six. He was abusive to my kids but my kids witness daily abuse to me. My ex husband has raped me numerous occasions and one time in 2014 a more violent rape. I never reported anything. I lived in fear of being deported and losing the two most important things in the world. I had no family back home. I'm a misfit. I tried leaving a handful of times and always came back in fear of losing my kids and no one knowing how to handle my citizenship situation and most people did not want the red tape. It got so bad I had a failed suicide in 2016 becauae he destroyed my mental health so bad. Anyways my s.o and I knew each other on and off. We fought... Over stupid shit. I was always jealous over him and finally realized it was because I had feelings for him. One day at school when I was picking up my kids he reached out to me and asked me what was wrong. I broke down and started sobbing and told him how my husband told me I was repulsive and would not let me go.... He hated me but would not let me go. People were starring I did not care. I was so broken and trapped. He reached out to me more and we got closer. Not once did I faulter my marriage. Even though my ex husband had affairs with women at work. One day when I was with Darrin(my s.o) after telling my ex husband I was done (2 weeks prior because Darrin had given me the courage to speak up and end it. My ex husband tried everything to keep me in the house. He literally slept on top of me) I was with Darrin learning to tattoo. Nothing happened. My daughter called me to let me know me ex husband had "collapsed" and was "unresponsive". I knew it was a game. Called police. Police showed up to the house so did Darrin and myself. The police told me to take my kids and leave. Which I did and did not return back to him. During this time I was more then nice to do exchange. Darrin was more then nice. Even though he had a rap of not having the best reputation due to anger issues associated to tbi and hating abusive people he never once snapped. Anyways during an exchange with the kids before court got involved my ex took my babies and never brought them back. I had to go physically try and get them back myself through a physical altercation. I was assaulted and almost run over. I managed to get my son who he dropped and ran. He would not let my daughter go.... He got money from her due to her disability. She is autistic. The only witnesses were my ex husband affair mistress from work, her daughter and her daughters fiancee. I tried to get my daughter. I was shoved into a cabinet and he literally threw her into the Chevy traverse and locked the car with the keyphob. She banged on the door and was screaming for me. I told her i was not going to let go. He started to drive with me running along. My hand got caught in the door handle and he kept driving. I screamed for him to stop. My daughter was screaming for him to stop. I still cry having put my daughter through that. Darrin ran up and saw what was happening as he was hiding out at a house behind my old house waiting for the kids and yself5 and I managed to send my son to him before trying to get my daughter. He ran up and banged on the window 3 times for my ex to stop because I was being dragged at this point. The whole time he wad watching me as I was dragged. I had to let go but I couldn't. I did manage to free my fingers and he drobe off. Only witnesses were people against me. His friends. The police were called etc... 

The police showed up and chewed me out. They aked me what happened I told them. They asked Darrin what happened he told the same thing. The cop who later was invesitgated for police brutality on Darrin asked me if I was going do stick to my "story" because I could get into legal trouble and face jail time. I was bullied by police a lot. Ive gotten Smarter. I started speaking up for myself and reporting the abuse of the police officers. Later we found out that they were charging Darrin for criminal damage. Not my ex for assault!!!! They never checked his hands nothing!!! They took my ex word over Darrin. I was the one walking away bruised. And yes I did file a report/photos. Anyways they dragged stuff out more stuff happened... Its a mess and sounds like a life time movie.... For real. Today he pleaded no contest to get other charges off that he was guilty for.... But they deemed him guilty with no proof anyways.... So he has to pay my ex 600$ and minimal change for restitution. He is on probation for a year to make sure he pays for that. This man has done so much for myself and my kids. If it wasnt for me he wouldnt have gotten this. We both cannot work. He has a TBI (traumatic brain Injury) he is on disability and only gets 800$ a month. Between us we have four kids. 6 of us total and three doggies. I cannot work because of my not being a citizen. Which my social worker/domestic abuse shelter are trying to help me with!!! For vawa visa. But also doing my time in isolation I was neglected basic medical care and got very sick. Thanks to Darrin and my social worker I got medical help and testing and finally got diagnosis of Gasteroparesis. Its basically basically a paralyzed stomach. Ive lost over 100 pounds and struggle to just get out of bed some days. But I manage. My ex has gotten away with domestic abuse, rape, assault etc. Because I never had enough proof etc... And marital rape doesnt happen... I did manage to get a 4 year domestic abuse injunction on him. Thats a whole other messy story but luckily the death threat text messages and my telling them about the rape helped win th at for me. That and he admitted to it after being asked 5 times. But never charged because no forensic proof.... I learned the court system is so crooked its not even funny. My ex has a history of sexual assault and stalking etc... But none of that matters. Anyways I want to help my Darrin out. I do not care if it is 2$-3$ I really don't every little bit helps. He is not a man to ask for help. He does not know I am doing this. I am only looking to raise the 600. I'll pay whatever else with my wonderful 160$ month in child support I get along with my belongings I can sell. I owe this man my life.... Maybe more. I feel so horrible that this is happening to him. Yes he has a history but he was on a good track of staying out of troubme and then I came along...
I will provide my PayPal info. I'll update you all on the payment... This would be such a weight off of him and from what I understand if he can pay this off as quickly as possible he can get off of probation. This is my PayPal name... I dunno how to get a link but I do not want to lose this post...
If you can help thank you so much. If you cannot that ok. Try to keep the hate to minimal or to none. Trust me I have had enough but expect a lot of backlash.

TIA.

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