Hello F.B. family, and friends. It's been a little while since I have posted about what the next step that I would take in trying my best to help others in my babyboy AJ'S name, and memory. I haven't shared the last week of AJ'S life and story, nor the pictures. But I feel that the time is right now. To continue to be able to help these beautiful souls and ANGELS continue to fight the hardest of fights. I will forever be in disbelief, shock, and the deepest pain imaginable after witnessing just what my babyboy had to suffer and go through... EVERY SINGLE DAY I REMEMBER at least 1 more thing that crushes my soul to the core. About what he endured. And it just makes me want to crawl under a mountain and die. But I can't it's absolutely not what AJ wanted. And I will speak in depth at the upcoming functions, exactly what AJ wanted and was thinking. It is mind blowing that he was this wise, loving, and caring especially at his age to express himself so beautifully. ♥️ ...So on June 7th, 2016 AJ was rushed to HASBRO CHILDREN'S HOSPITAL because he was coughing up blood. And upon being admitted the oncologists said that he would not be able to leave the hospital again. Because if he started to hemorrhage up blood again, he would suffer from it. So that Saturday night(June 11th 2016) I invited one of AJ'S Little League Coaches to come visit him fearing that AJ'S health was deteriorating. His name is Mike Ferreira. It was really short notice, but I had reached out to coach Ken Pimental. But he was out of town and unavailable at the time. AJ loved these two men in a way that I had never heard him speak about any other man. Other than myself over the years that AJ was out of little league. I was SOOO PROUD to hear him speak about the appreciation that he had for them. For just 2 days ago I went to spend a evening with my little league coach. He is 86 yrs old . And I love him indescribably. So AJ really touched home with me. ♥️ (see pictures of coach Mike , and AJ the day before AJ passed away...And earlier that evening I had received a text message from AJ asking me to bring my movie book up to Hasbro Children's Hospital so that he could pick out some movies to watch with his mom. And I replied "of course". So he picked out 9 movies to watch. Which to some may seem like alot. But AJ was a movie buff lol. He would watch movie after movie with my mom. So I didn't think much of it...Here's what really hurts me to the core. I then told AJ that I was going to the nurse's station to get him a Dvd player.He said "ok", and upon asking for one. The nurse replied to me " I'm sorry but the person who has the key's to the closet went home at 5:00pm." I then said " nobody else has a key to the closet" she replied " no" . It was 6 o'clock at night !!! I then had to return to AJ'S room to tell him what she had said. Which I felt like shhh. So after telling AJ. I said " hey I'm just going to a Wal-Mart or somewhere and I'm going to just buy you one. And in typical AJ fashion because he as GOD is my witness rarely, if ever "wanted" anything. And I'm talking birthdays, Christmas's ect... replied no dad it's ok I'm allset. I then said no it's ok I'm going to go pick you up one (dvd player) so that you will have it for tomorrow , next week, or whatever. He said "looking but trying not to show disappointment ... "dad I'm all set... I said AJ they are only like $20 no big deal . And here's where another missed sign that has beat me over the heart and head repeatedly. AJ replied " I'm going home tomorrow anyway"... and me in total denial said hey that's AWESOME I didn't know that" ! As he then shut his eyes...a few minutes later his nurse came in , and I said to her " Hey AJ'S going home tomorrow ??? And looked at me in suprise and said "no" and asked why did he say that" ? And I replied "yes" then she shook her head no. AJ then brightened right up when he had seen her... The nurse said " Hey AJ , I just wanted to say hello and make sure that everything was ok before I went home " And AJ not even mentioning the dvd player said , yes everything is ok. Just drive home safe,and make sure that you wear your seatbelt ♥️ . She replied I will, and I will see you tomorrow morning AJ. He said ok with his BIG BEAUTIFUL SMILE... Looking back at how in denial that I was because of a huge lack of communication. Which I won't bother to even go there at this time...I then waited for his mom to return before then going home. The next morning at 8:30 am I get a phone call saying "if you want to see AJ off you better hurry up and get here !!! At that point my world, and mind were spinning out of control. As thinking about it has me reliving the MOST UNBEARABLE, AND UNBELIEVABLE, DAY OF MY LIFE. I just couldn't, and still can't believe that this was, and has happened to me. And more importantly my babyboy. He was the perfect child to me. And I'm not being biased because he was my son. Anyone that knew him could attest to that. So I take the blame for not being a better father. People will argue " no it's not your fault. But GOD has blessed me with gifts throughout my whole life with the ability to see certain things. And I just blocked them out. I have not tried to identify these gifts. I have just ran from them. Therefore I blame myself. But I'm not going to go in that direction. Because the absolute most important thing is the children and families fighting and in war with cancer ! And at the very least it is my duty to make sure that when these precious ANGELS know that they will be leaving us. As AJ surely knew. That they can have a dvd player accessible to watch a movie , or whatever with their mom, dad, family whatever ! Iam grateful that as I brought AJ'S lastnight of "physically" being here to the attention of Hasbro Children's Hospital and ironically "Angela" who was the person who has helped to make this happen. And honor Arsene James " AJ" DaSilva. And his unselfish, brave,and courageous fight, war, and battle with this ugly disease that has robbed SOOO many families, and people of time and life. I have committed to donating 45 dvd players (the cost is $50 per player which was the model that they requested) to the Hasbro Children's Hospital cancer intake unit. I originally had wanted to do 100 dvd players on AJ'S floor but, the remodeling has t.v.'s with dvd players built into the television already but the emergency intake will be up to me. I'm raising funds for the emergency intake with the help and support of my facebook family and friends. If youre not able to purchase a ticket please share towards this mission in helping these children fight for their lives. I'm still in shock and reeling from the things that I have seen AJ go through without as much as a tear to me. I could NEVER be so brave as he was. But I could literally go on, and on. About HEAVEN'S ANGEL, ARSENE JAMES DASILVA. But it was and is his will to remain focused on the children who are still fighting. All the way up to our final words on his deathbed. And I promised him that I would help any child that I could in his name and honor. And that I would make him proud of me. And trust me I am behind on my goals. Because losing my babyboy is just indescribably unbelievable. I still can't even wrap my heart and thoughts around it. Mother's and father's not necessarily in that order PLEASE LEARN FROM ME !!! Love, talk, hug , and have patience with with your child or children. This world is a mess. And they aren't always going to talk to you about things... You have to be "annoying" lol and be asked by your child "how many times are you going to call me. " lol again. To get through to them. ♥️ But I ask that in AJ'S name and memory, and in support of TEAM AJ and Hasbro Children's Hospital that you reach out In helping those fighting for their lives. Thank you For loving , caring, about AJ and those who are fighting this awful and deadly disease. These children are babies on up to teenagers who don't even have a clue what life in a healthy world is about. All they know about is pain, needles, hospitals, chemotherapy, being worried, being scared, hoping, praying to get to live another day, another week , another month, God willing another year... #1 on AJ'S bucket list was to live to at least 20 years old !!! CANCER F'N SUCKS. If you are unable to donate, prayer for these fighters is the main thing to do. ♥️ Either way I will get these dvd player's into this hospital. If I have to pay for them myself. It is a promise that I will not break. And doing so, is what gives me the strength to even get out of bed each day. So please don't feel obligated but at least bring awareness to the children, and families who need prayer and any kind of positive support that we can give them. For I know first hand the worst that can happen. And if it weren't for GOD, my promises to my babyboy, and the fact that I know that there are children, and families who need prayer, and my/ our help. I don't know where I would be. Not that I'm in a good place by no means. But GOD is holding me up. So I will keep punching. Thankyou f.b family and friends for taking the time to read this lengthy post. I tried to edit as much as I could but, AJ needs to be heard as best as I can to get the importance of his fight , story and courage that he and these children are displaying. They are my heroes. And I pray yours. Because life can change in the blink of an eye. As it did for AJ and our family. I ask that you pray for us as we continue through with the rest of our lives with other families who are hurt , and broken with the loss of they're babyboys,and babygirls. It truly is the worst pain that I have ever felt. Love and GODBLESS all of you. Sincerely ♥️ TEAM AJ ♥️ xoxo # Share # TeamAJ # cancerscreenings