This is the first time I actually considered doing this, as each day passes its killing me to know that my dog is suffering and that one day soon he just won't get up.Hi Im Gina and I never wanted this day to come, its heart breaking to see your dog in pain, how do you know when to much is to much, how long should you wait? The look in his eyes I can't look at him with pouring into tears. Stuart is a 14 year old German shepard I know thats already passed what they are expected to live. He has a hard time getting up and hard for him to stay up, he recently got this big tennis ball lump in his neck, we think it might be a tumor,he doesnt bark at all and hasnt for some time,he barely eats and has lost a lot of weight. I never would even consider putting a dog to sleep but its killing me seeing him,and hearing him cry at night, which I gets me upset thinking he is in pain. I know rescue can take him but I can not will not let that happen, he will be scared and I can not bare to think how he will feel.So I decided to give this a shot.A private vet would have to come to the house to put him to sleep and take him away it's pricey and I would have to come up with about $600 for the shot alone because hes a big dog.Each day that goes by makes me wonder if he will he make it through the day.Its a hard choice but I just dont want him suffering.He's lived a good 14 years and I just want him to have a gentle and painless passing.I know its the best thing to do for him. Please help me pay to get a vet to come out and put him to sleep. end his pain and suffering even tho I'm not ready to say goodbye but that time has come.I'm sure many of you  know what it feels like and have lost there loved pets, You never are ready to let go.Please If you can donate anything to help raise money  for this process, and share my story it will be of such big help and appreaciate sincerely.