I might look like your average 28year old girl that grew up in a perfect home, living in a middle class family, and where the parents went to work to provide for the family. And mother always had dinner on the table at 6pm sharp. But non of thoes things happened, my parents were so poor they coldnt provided for us children to put food or even get school supplies every year for school. My mom was a drug addict and my father also a alcholic who divorced before i was two. My mom got custody of me and my sister and we lived i a home of watching strange men sleeping with my mother for drugs. She remerried to my stepdad, also a drug addict, who would physically abuse me. i had no childhood. my mom ended up moving out with him leaving me at the house alone at the age of 12, my sister moved out, so i was alone. we live in iowa and iowa winters are cold, and i had no heat, since our heat sorce was provided by propaine and would cost over $2000 toget filled.I lived in the house over the winter months, i would get off the school bus and run to my bed that had about ten blankets and just lay there till morning, when the school bus came. there was no food and i saw my mom only once a month witch was the third of the month , the day she got my social secuity check from my dads death, that i never saw a dime and most of it went to her drug habbit. She would come in side the house on the third of the month, after she got the checks and get right on the phone and i could hear her make the phone call to her drug dealer, while i sat in my bed freezig, hungary and no communication from the outside world. I once asked her for money and she said no because i work and she didnt, and the only reason i had a  job illegally, was because she wasnt supporting her 12 year old daughter. i never quit working, and ended up becoming a person with a good head on my sholders. When i was 15 my only best friend also ended up talking her life, she left me a suicide note and from that time on i changed. I became depressed, i had major anxiety and just didnt want to speak to anyone. My social anxiety was the worst, i had to maintain going to school, work, and cheerleading when i just wanted to run whenever i seen a crowd. I couldnt finda medication that would help, or a dr that was right for me and still to this day havent. its been 14 years that i have been suffering. I eventuallly graduated highschool, the only one in my family and went to a community college. One day on my way to college i got into a bad car accident and started having grad maul seizures frequently. I quit breathing for 7 mins last time i had one. When i startedhaving these seizues i started to have strange symtoms, and found out i had hole in my memory part of my brain. It also caused me to be digonsed with bi-polar and a mild form of paranoia schizophrenic. I was lucky since i had lived such a hard life so young, that i became a stong person But every second in my mind, my issues never leave. All i want in life is to be normal and live a normal life, i came so far and went threw so much that my life cant end lke it started. I want to go back to school to be a psychologist so i can help people that are dealing with the same thing i suffer from every day. I already have $3000 of school debt and about $40000 worth of medical bills. I have never asked for help and not even sure how to, but once i heard about this web site i told my friend and he convinced me that i need to try it, im supose to be moving 2 hours away for medical treatment to see if i can find secialist that could treat me, and i have no money saved up for  place to live since i will be proablly be living down there and i already looked into the homless shelters and they only have two, which are full. I have alot of stuff on my plate right now so any help that anyone could donate i would apprecate every dollar of it, it will be going to get my life back or a lifethat i never got o expierience, and i believe everyone deserves a chance at life, so if you would let me get a chance so i can at least expierice happiness just once in my life.....